Pain

The pain it washes over me in waves without a sound
I’ve fallen down onto my knees now i lay here on the ground
The tears they sting my swollen eyes and I taste the salty brine
I told her everything i am, and now shes no longer mine

I fuck my life with each twist and turn, but hope keeps me alive
I love my children so much it hurts and they force me to survive,
But thrive is what i cannot do, as the demons pull me down
to the depths of darkness where i cannot breathe and i know i’ll eventually drown.

So I struggle to breathe and I beg to a god who left me long ago
I go upstairs and under my bed is a solution that I know
I pull my knife out of its sheath and slowly start to saw
the serrated blade, my enemy, that is poignant in my war

But peace arrives waving a flag to allow me to finally sleep
I drift into unconsciousness and I no longer need to weep
I wake into the same old world and curse and stare above
Cos all I’ve ever wanted, is for me to be loved.