'The Cure'

"When the battles nearly over,
but the war has just begun,
I am staring at the bodies,
as I grasp my smoking gun..."

The words they paint a picture,
but it's time to put down the book,
I realise I've lost everything,
and there is nowhere left to look.

I've been taken to the doctors,
He gave me pills to help me change,
They're supposed to make me happy,
but they've left me more deranged.

This lesbian has given me,
A disease that's made me sore,
I'm sick of all the one night stands,
I am sick of meeting whores.

I want my wife, I want my life,
and to see my daughter every day,
She's taken away all that I have,
I just wish that I could've stayed.

So I'm sitting here just wallowing,
In a home that's not my own,
I'm waiting for the rain to stop,
I have never felt so alone.

There's not a lot that I have left,
I lose more family with every year,
I try to write more words to say,
whilst I'm choking back the tears.

But I have to go so I button my shirt,
and chose another mask to wear,
I've got to go to work again,
and pretend that I really care.

I've made it here with a smile on my face,
I can't let my nervousness show,
I cannot let the vultures,
ever know that I feel so low.

They would pick at my bones for a laugh and a joke,
If a chink in my armour was revealed,
I am shaking inside, and I'm constantly sick,
Oh please god, just let me be healed!

I can't get to sleep, i have tried for weeks,
My restless legs shall never be stilled,
I'm lucky to get three hours in the night,
I lie there and dream of being killed.

I can't do it myself cos I can't decide how,
By the time I decide I've returned,
From the terrible hell that exists in my head,
All my positive thoughts have been burned.

So I put on a smile, and I think for a while,
and I remember something so pure,
The thoughts of my girls just keep me alive,
I think I may have found My Cure! x

Written by EyeCeyE 2006